I felt while working that my head has started to function again. Though slowly, it remembered what it was like to think about several things at once and narrow the focus down onto a particular thing at hand. I know that there should be stages in between where I make a complete list of the tasks I have and consider what to prioritise amongst them, and yet it never succeeded. Nonetheless, it didn’t feel too bad to have my mind focus on something for a large amount of time; concentration is a blessing in life, no matter what you would concentrate on. It would be nice if I could enjoy some time to concentrate on making music, or shooting and editing photos in a way I like.

To commit to things that I am truly interested in, one way to realise the commitment in everyday life would be name myself as a professional for them first. If the being comes first, what follows is the becoming where I could see a series of attempts and improvements to make. If I put the becoming first and try to be in a particular way without naming myself so, I would immediately get lost in the dense fog. Anything I do would not lead straight to any being, whilst it might forms the contours of my self.