{"id":130,"date":"2025-10-25T14:02:19","date_gmt":"2025-10-25T14:02:19","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/journal.shirtcatsfantasising.com\/?p=130"},"modified":"2025-10-25T14:02:21","modified_gmt":"2025-10-25T14:02:21","slug":"sat-25-10-2025","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/journal.shirtcatsfantasising.com\/index.php\/2025\/10\/25\/sat-25-10-2025\/","title":{"rendered":"Sat, 25\/10\/2025"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>Rained all day. As I had a bit of quarrel with my girlfriend the previous night, the room looked a little darker than usual until she woke up and got into the living room. She had been acting like a child, as per usual, and I felt really, really tired. The fatigue lasted until the end of the day. After supper, she complained about the fact that she didn&#8217;t have a ticket for an Oasis gig, which she had been doing many times since the last year. I was drained because no matter how many times I told her that it was pure luck that I got one and, though she didn&#8217;t get one, it had nothing to do with how she had been trying her best in other aspects of life, her words always circled back to &#8220;why didn&#8217;t I get it?&#8221; and &#8220;You looked chuffed when you told me that your dad got a ticket for you (and I found it upsetting)&#8221;. I foresaw how our relationship would come to an end. Such conversation always leaves me with an irritation towards her and a sense of wasting my time. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Given the all above, I think that it is deeply insincere I have not been able to sort this situation out and create an environment where I can be true to myself without having to deal with other person&#8217;s disrespectful attitude that probably arise from traumatic wounds and using my time for absolutely meaningless hanging-out. She chooses to waste our time because by doing so, she can make sure to a certain extent that I do not consider breaking up with her. I have decided to start drawing a rigid line between us today, and if it leads to the death of our connection (it would never be a peaceful consensus), I should assume the end. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<div style=\"height:9px\" aria-hidden=\"true\" class=\"wp-block-spacer\"><\/div>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large has-custom-border is-style-hakoniwa-hover-box-shadow-04\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"1024\" height=\"768\" src=\"http:\/\/journal.shirtcatsfantasising.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/10\/IMG_2739-1024x768.jpeg\" alt=\"\" class=\"has-border-color has-white-border-color wp-image-131\" style=\"border-width:35px\" srcset=\"https:\/\/journal.shirtcatsfantasising.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/10\/IMG_2739-1024x768.jpeg 1024w, https:\/\/journal.shirtcatsfantasising.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/10\/IMG_2739-300x225.jpeg 300w, https:\/\/journal.shirtcatsfantasising.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/10\/IMG_2739-768x576.jpeg 768w, https:\/\/journal.shirtcatsfantasising.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/10\/IMG_2739-1536x1152.jpeg 1536w, https:\/\/journal.shirtcatsfantasising.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/10\/IMG_2739-2048x1536.jpeg 2048w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 1024px) 100vw, 1024px\" \/><\/figure>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Rained all day. 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