Wasted a whole day. Probably because I got so disappointed with everything with my girlfriend. When I asked her if I could turn the heater on, she didn’t say either yes or no, but showed that she was reluctant to agree to. I asked her the same question again, and she said that “because I don’t feel cold”, not looking at me at all. Okay, I said, and started to change, feeling bitter since by her demeanour, she tried to convince me I made her uncomfortable and my question was somewhat unkind. I asked her the question as a form of respect to her and a way of conveying my needs, but she ignored all. I felt the bitterness in my chest. Then, she started to say “You can turn it on though,” and picked up a controller and turned the heater on. While she was doing so, I said to her that she didn’t have to turn it on (precisely because she evidently showed that she didn’t want me to use the heater!). But, neither did she look at or respond to me, and she just went back to cooking after left the controller where it was put. The whole series of acts seemed to disregard my existence, and so I confronted with her asking why she ignored everything I said or acted. She ignored it too – what a surprise. Though I haven’t counted the number, I have had pretty much the same conversation with her dozens of times. Every time I did, I ended up with meaninglessness of the whole interaction and exhausted mentally by the insignificance of my contribution. From her perspective, I would imagine, she would never guess what I have felt. Or, more like, she would not be able to have a clue as to what this interaction meant to me. I have come to think that it might not be that she refuses to listen to me as she fears being put in a submissive position. Rather, she simply doesn’t have any perceptive or emotional prerequisite for the conversation I need. If so, it would mean nothing to keep explaining to her what I think or feel in response to her behaviour, no matter how much I endeavour.